I think I can...

So I think we all can all agree last class was a first for us all. But who knows, I came in two weeks late, ha. Anyway, I am going to say what I am going to say and I don't care if it makes me feel uninspired, dull or even weak-minded. I will admit, reading the Woodford has been a ego-crusher. My entire self-esteem runs away when I open that spiraling wordy sentence of doom. I just feel dumb, no other word to explain. I feel like I can't grasp the material or when I do get one four line sentence under my hands, I can't relate it anywhere.

This class period help me realize, hey we're all drowning and made me a little more comfortable. Schmidt believed that we could it because he thought we were smart. And as cheesy as it is, the next time I opened the book, it was like I have the cryptex from The Da Vinci Code. I was able to read so much and understand so much more. I still, like us all, lack time to delve deep. But when i can read and understand is phenomenal. I decided to test my newly "third day" confidence on the postmodernism chapter.

Woodford says, "the idea is that the individual is himself and is constructed from language or music...so as subject he does not exist...he then cannot be responsible for what is written. So basically this ties into the political struggle how history is what we want to remember it as. And it's so true: you read any American history book and they will edit "truth" and "lies" to accomodate popularity or distaste. I think about it every time I watch political news. I look at Barack Obama, and see him as an icon. Not even as a human. Is he real? What does he really stand for? How does Palin feel when she leaves the podium, does she have emotion. It was a shock to see Hilary cry, because let's face it, they're not supposed to. They need to sell, sell, sell it.

I mean this sentence, is a lot for me. It strikes me and I am still trying to figure it out. It seems like we can't control what people think about us and more over what we can become. It's scary to think that there is a cabinet of people controlling the world but what if. What if we thought this was the life we chose but really it was more complex than that. I'm sure I'm wrong, ha, but isn't blogging about trying out thoughts?